Cleaning up

Blogging light today, settlement for the house is Friday, so I am cleaning out what is left.

We moved everything on the weekend so now it is filling the skip with rubbish.

Kind of sad having an empty house and knowing that from Friday I will no longer own anything when I have owned property for 26 years. Yes, I have owned property since I was 15 years old.

Thanks to Fidelity Life, at age 41 I have to start again from nothing.

This morning I had a breakthrough today, I saw my scum sucking, thieving, c*nt of a former business partner this morning. Normally I have a panic attack and all the ensuing drama, today I smiled and laughed at him, I felt good looking him in the eye, knowing that I didn’t bolt and go bankrupt like him, that I settled and paid my creditors and that I’m not a liar, and a cheat.

Still it grates that Fidelity Life won’t communicate but they will, I promise, eventually make them talk, through a judge.

From Friday I draw a line under the past and try to re-build my life knowing that depression still stalks me but it will never ever defeat me.

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  • michaels

    Good for you Whale.
    It is easier to lose everything (as I have done) and stand tall knowing you did the right thing (also as I have done).
    The real hard part is to forgive (after 10 years I haven’t) and until you can, I believe it is truly hard to really move on.

  • robf

    If your Ex business partner drives a black holden ute he is going back into business or should I say taking over the business from his current business partner. It does feel good to lie straight in bed at night and walk tall during the day.

  • kram

    Gone broke a couple of times on the journey of my life. Would’nt have missed it for quids. But thats hindsight. Still, its been better than being one of the herd.

    Congratulations for having made it this far……..

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1201173949 petal

    Made it down to $10k 10 years ago after business partners and a spouse took their ‘fair’ share. That’s life.
    At 45 now I’m back up to owning 85% of my house and no other debts.
    Your REAL life begins at 40, by the way. 60 is the new 40 these days. Didn’t have kids till 39.
    If you want it, you can do it.

  • gaskranken

    Grant Fell, Octane Productions did me in, hundred and fifty grand. Only time in my life I had ever had that sort of money, lost it all..

    Working for the man now for a pittance but its a secure gig – would love to know if anyone who reads this knows Grant Fell, runs Black Magazine now, a pretentious piece of old school vacuous shit.

    blackmag.co.nz

  • bignuts

    Know what it’s like, back in the early ninties when interest rates were around the 18.5% and I was made redundant after 17.5 years, found a low paid job, so we sold up our house (I’m still reminded of it today)we were on one & half incomes when the child no 2 came along, suddenly we were down to one income and couldnt afford the bills, rates power etc so sold up and rented.
    Child no 3 came along soon and then I took a job in a Chartered Accountants office in the East. Studied extramurally and graduated in 2007. Racked up student loans and other loans during this time and still scraping through. Moved west to another CA’s, rents twice as much so couldn’t afford the loans so they’re with the debt collectors. No help with Winz acommodation costs, yet if I was on the same wage paying the same rent in the middle of Auckland or Wellington I would have received over $34.00 per week, the reason is higher costs in these areas, sorry doesnt wash as same % of net pay is paying the rent, punters write to your MP about this.Going through budget advice
    but they want me to start up and contribute to a bank account ready to start in July when I had finished paying off a loan – but now no fat in my weekly wage – as my hours have gone from fulltime to 27.5 per week. So catch 22 begins – no money to start bank account = no further help from budget advisors even though my circumstances have changed again. Still I’m not getting depressed just gotta keep looking for either full or another parttime job. Keep on oiling!

  • michaels

    On the bright side blacknuts, you still have the vital broadband :)

  • megashitstirrer

    Listen to you lot talking like fucken losers. Its a badge of honour having a go and fucking up.

    Those tossers that live in a state house dragging the dole or on $30 grand tut tutting wouldnt have a fucken clue what its like to live hand to mouth.

    One door closes another one opens WO. Get off your arse and make your blog bigger and nastier than ever.

  • coge

    In a society where you’re free to succeed, people must also be free to fail!

  • biker99999

    Cameron

    Kia kaha and all the best. You have a lot of support out there in the ether.

    Best wishes again

  • orange

    Another top quality post. You’re making a habit of this Whale. Best wishes.

  • kehua

    Peace my friend Glorious Peace.