About Chris Carter and his illness

If we needed confirmation that Clark is behind the Chris Carter troubles then look no further than Brian Edwards and his post about Chris Carter. I am now becoming incensed at the behaviour surrounding Chris Carter and the Labour party. They are making excuses for someones behaviour based on the alleged mental state of someone. This is demeaning and derogatory towards those of us who do actually suffer from mental health issues, have never hidden it and never asked for anyone to give us a break, understand us or cut us some slack. My point of view is that I am who I am, I do what I do, there are no excuses, I own my own bullshit and Chris Carter needs to start owning his as well rather than having Helen Clark’s hagiographer start running spin.

Imagine this. You’re a public figure. An accusation has been made against you, not of any criminal act, not even of breaching any rule, but of displaying an attitude of entitlement to the perks of office. Others have been as guilty as you, some more guilty. But the world seems largely uninterested in them. Its focus is almost entirely on you.

Imagine that for months you are vilified daily in the press, on radio, on television, on the Internet, to your face, behind your back.  Imagine that this relentless attack goes beyond what you have done to what you are said to be –  a person without integrity, without conscience, egotistical, narcissistic, a sponger on the public purse, a waste of space. Imagine being branded ‘worthless’.

Imagine not being able to open a newspaper, listen to radio, watch television, surf the Net without finding this judgement of your character somewhere expressed. Imagine it happening every hour of every day for months.

Well Brian, I have that exact same issue. But instead of hiding behind excuses I man up and take the lumps on the chin. I don’t run off to my mentor’s hagiographer to get them to run posts for me. Brian Edwards thinks I am “vile”, they are his own words. Yet using his post as a crutch I could ask and beg for forgiveness because I suffer from depression. I won’t of course because that is pathetic, and that is where Chris Carter, Helen Clark, Brian Edwards and anyone else running the poor Chris, he’s sick bullshit.

Imagine being chased down corridors by people with microphones and cameras. Imagine them camped day and night outside your home, their spotlights trained on your doors and windows. Imagine them following you everywhere you go.   Imagine them calling out:  Answer! Explain!  Apologise!

Imagine that when you do apologise, do try to explain, it is still not enough. You must apologise again. You must be publicly humiliated. You must not be left with a vestige of self-worth.

And when all of this has finally been achieved,  imagine how normal, how rational, how entirely sane, how capable of coping, even of going on, you might be.

Imagine? Good god almighty, anyone would think that Brian Edwards was writing a song, except that John Lennon already did that theme. What I’d like to imagine, but is unlikely to ever happen in this excuse making liberal, pinko world of unreality is for people to own their actions. Imagine that.

I don’t know Chris  Carter’s state of health, but I imagine he is unwell. I imagine he has been unwell for some time. And I imagine that his ‘unwellness’ may explain his recent irrational and self-destructive behaviour.

As he emerged from his meeting with the Te Atatu LEC, Labour Party President Andrew Little said he had been asked to deal ‘compassionately’ with Chris Carter. I thought the word appropriate.

It seems to me that if Carter has indeed been found guilty of displaying an attitude of entitlement to the perks of office and, now, of disloyalty to his party and leader, natural justice would at least require that he be credited with ‘time spent’ in the purgatory which must have been his recent life.

Before deciding his fate the Labour Party Council and Party Leader Phil Goff should imagine how it might feel to have everything you have done, worked for, achieved, reduced to nothing. They might then show compassion and generosity, by giving their long-serving MP time to heal, perhaps even to return, albeit under notice, to the party fold. How they deal with this matter will ultimately reflect as much on them as it does on him.

This is all bullshit. It doesn’t matter to Brian Edwards about my mental state, and nor should when he calls me “vile”. It doesn’t matter to the nasty c*nts that send me emails anonymously telling me to get a job, or to the anonymous bloggers of the Standard who abuse me as well, nor would I want it to. I don’t want anyone’s sympathy and I am not making excuses. I would, however, like Chris Carter to man up and accept that his behaviour is unacceptable, that his attitude and sense of entitlement requires an apology and I would like liberal hand-wringer f*ckwits like Brian Edwards to actually stop making excuses for people. That will be a hell of lot more healthy for Chris Carter than excuse making.

The excuse making has even passed through the beltway to right wing bloggers who are also making excuses that Chris Carter is sick, and that National are giving him a free pass because of his illness. National it seems are also buying into this, though it never stopped some in National giving me a right good kicking. Again I am not looking for justification, I am just saying this excuse making is utter  bullshit. Depression isn’t something you catch, or suddenly contract. To suggest as much now for Chris Carter belittles those of us who have to suffer through it on a daily basis, zoned out on prescribed drugs, and medical solutions that poison you slowly and give you no life at all. Chris Carter’s carry on and the subsequent excuses make me very angry indeed. Tossers like Brian Edwards who think that it is ok to cut Carter some slack but at the same time attack freely other people  who suffer mental illness shows just how truly evil the left is.

Depression is. I should know, I live with it everyday. Some days a good, others are truly terrible, but it never justifies or should allow me to excuse my actions. That is taking the soft option, and I don’t do soft options. Brian Edwards is basically an enabler of aberrant behaviour and he does so at the behest of his client Helen Clark and her pal Chris Carter. This is of course all being done to get Phil Goff. To do it though off the back of alleged mental illness shows again just how much leftists really care. They simply don’t. Everything is a means to an ends to them and they sicken me with their behaviour.

Excuse making will never help a person suffering depression, support and friendship does. One thing having severe depression for 6 years has taught me is that you can count your actual friends on one hand. Those friends don’t give you “there, theres” or “it’ll be alrights”, or even “HTFU’s”, like depression they just are…friends. I know who mine are, I suggest Chris Carter starts finding out who his truly are, because it sure as hell won’t be who he thinks they are.

I’ve never asked for a break, a free-ride, or slack or anything else. I don’t make excuses, I am who I am, and I am what I do. It is time for some in politics to do the same. Sorry for the ramble but unless you have actually lived through, or live the with the nightmare that is depression you can’t possibly understand, and if you do understand you will know that what Chris Carter, labour and all their enablers is doing makes me very angry indeed, and that an angry Whale is not good for his opposition no matter what team they bat for.